Wednesday, May 27, 2009
A SUPER EMO POST:(((
Hais..Suddenly i realise i have been quite fortunate.
Although i cannot achieve what i want or need based on academic wise:((
I cannot achieve anything big in my life.
But i do have a complete familly..
I have a family who loves me and
of cause i do love them too.
I am able to have daily meals everyday.
I do not have to worry about financial stuff..
To some, I am considered quite fortunate.
I am so disgusted with myself.
I don't even have the right to be complaining.
For i have always been pissed for having such a fucking life.. :(
Trying so hard, but still unable to do well.:(
I just don't know what's my problem.
I'm sure i did study hard, i did try my best;(
But to no avail..
I just don't understand.
I have always been envious of those who have a good brain.
Some just played it off and still able to get good results.
Here i am, struggling, trying hard to study;(
But nothing works.
WHY IS SO UNFAIR?
I don't know.
Some even have some problems in their life, but still able to do well.
But what about me???
My family life is considered okay.
The more i should be able to make it, but nope, i did not.
I failed terribly.
What is wrong with me?
I am just so upset with myself.
What the hack have i been doing in my life?
I am just a useless person on earth..
Did i try not hard enough?
I really don't know.
But all i know is I am really thankful to have my understanding parents :x
Although they do nag, but i know they meant well.
Although i have been such a failure in life, my parents never gave up on me.
They still do give me encouragement..
And to the bottom of my heart, i wanna say I LOVE YOU MUMMY & DADDY!
And i really do.
I thank you so much for all your love and support all these years.
And also wasting your hard earned $$ on a useless person like me.
I am so sorry for being a coward.
I do not dare to really tell you all how i felt actually.
But i am really thankful, for you all not giving up on me no matter what happen.
I shouldnt be discouraged.
There are people out there, who are facing worse situations than me.
For my love ones, i should live happily.
I know i should.
Anyway, sorry people~
I just need to voice out my thoughts..
Sorry to bore you.
Cheers.
I need some peace ;(
I really need to reflect why im such a failure..
如果我变成回忆, will i be happier?
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