Monday, July 13, 2009
Not a very good day today ):
Seriously, if time can pass quickly or if can go back time.
I'm fucking taking the time machine.
As now, i don't know what i am doing.
I don't know what can i do.
I'm just nothing.
Or i can say
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING.
Nothing i want to do works.
I'm always that fucking shuay in whatever i want to do.
It is not i don't want to do, just that i'm always disappointed! ):
Why is it always making me disappointed?
I really don't know!
I'm trying to be positive here! But seriously it is super hard for me!
Everything is just making me very negative..
And i keep trying to be happy and carrying on with my life, but deep down..
I'm really feeling very upset..
No one knows.
I don't know.
Everytime when i go back, i'm unhappy!
I hate this.
I want to be happy! Always spoil my happy mood.
Hais..
5 days of unhappiness + 2 days of happiness :(
This is so unfair.
I kept telling myself everything will be over, very soon.
But seems like it is taking forever.
): ): ):
I don't know what to say already.
But i know something..
I AM NOT HAPPY!
But some things just keeps pushing me on to hang on!
And that is you, my dearest friends (:
Those who always remember to keep in touch with me.
Thanks for tolerating a person like me.
I really love you guys =D
And ya, my idols-licious can get really strong.
I also don't know why.
I just feel so happy doing that =)
I know many of you will feel i'm just wasting time, money..
But i just feel happy when i'm doing that, i feel relax..
Maybe i'm mad or what.
Hais.
Anyway today i emo all the way down to Bugis kino to buy my COLOR magazine xD
And ya, i bought my queen of no marriage novel (:
I seriously love this show!
So i don't mind investing in this.
Can improve chinese lah, cause the words is in traditional chinese (:
What a fucking excuse.
LOL.
And i was super hungry so i go eat yoshinoya student meal.
Teriyaki chicken.
Damn delicious can.
HAHA!
And when i pass by the donuts shop, super tempting can!
Luckily i control myself.
If not i am going to slap myself! ):
HAHAHA!
